Clearing out the Cobwebs

Cobwebs and dust, old boxes, trash, yellowed newspapers... this might sound like someone's attic but really it is what I feel like I used to be like inside before I undertook this journey. I'm just so much more clear in my head. Years of crap have been cleaned out of my brain, my mind, my soul.

I think it's interesting that we can generally put on a pretty good front, never really letting people know us. I think over the years I got pretty good at seeming happy, smiling, making jokes, being helpful. But the people who know you most or who are paying more attention can tell when you're not being true. Over the past year maybe, it got harder and harder for me to keep up the front, or maybe the people around me were just being more aware. In either case, this undertaking was bound to happen.

I've been on a path to try to heal some issues from my past. Spiritually speaking, it has become apparent to my that God has a purpose for me and all of the stuff that happened to me. I've been getting this message over and over and over again. When I hear the same message so many times, I start to think God must be telling me something. I've heard this from various trusted people in my life, Dr. John started it and it just keeps coming at me. Saturday night I attended Flatirons Church in Lafayette and the message followed along with lines of thought from several of my last blog posts. And then Jim said something to the effect of "Plenty of people have had the same things happen to them and they are no longer in the race. Why are you still here? God still has a purpose for your life."

So, by cleaning out the cobwebs, I have been able to hear God more clearly. I'm beginning to feel and understand and really get some of His promises and principles that I've struggled with for a long time. It is amazing me still everyday since I started this diet how far-reaching it has been and everyday I'm excited to see what new area is going to open up for me because I'm not bogged down by the crap.